Awakening

I wanted to start by introducing myself to you - let you get to know me, in a sense.

Well, as I said, I am Elyrie. 

I was a magical provider to my people, from long ago, in another… world, you might say, called Elestia. I am here now, continuing this beautiful journey. I have found the best way to get through my struggles (through my own head) is by writing. I think it always has been. I’m usually afraid of saying the wrong thing - of taking criticism or backlash head on. But, I am also an idealist, driven to express the things in my heart - an Aquarian spirit, as they say in this world. 

I believe that these stories from my existence must be shared, not simply because they are my stories, but most importantly - to let you know that you are not alone. My deepest gratitude goes out to you, for accompanying me on this journey. I’m ever so thankful for your willingness to get to know my heart. 

I have a very introverted but driven personality type, geared towards making things happen and creating lasting change for the better. I have to admit, I push myself past the edge sometimes. I fight with anxiety when I’m not doing or being “enough”, according to my own mind. I’m stubborn and loyal, and I can be fierce. Truthfully, I think sometimes people don’t quite know how to take me, as I do have a certain level of intensity about me. I can work for months without breaks, and I know how to dig in when things get rough. I’ve also been learning that working without breaks is not necessarily a good thing, since progress requires respite. I’m still learning… all the time, actually. 

I genuinely love and adore people. It’s pretty much impossible for me to be fake. I’m an odd sort of combination, a lover and a fighter all-in-one. I can also be my own worst critic - and not in the constructive way. I can exhaust myself. At times, I don’t say anything about the things that hurt me, for fear of hurting worse. I can tear at myself until I’m in pieces, punishing myself for falling short of my perfectionistic self expectations.

What is it that I want to be? My ideal self? (Hey! Here is that “stuff I’m still learning”, that I mentioned!) 

I want to be self-compassionate. Loving. Giving. Gentle in the face of the struggle. Softened in the bitterness of pain, never hardened. Genuine and honest. Joyful and excitement filled. I want to be able to keep my heart open, no matter what may come. I want to learn that my happiness is safe. I want to grow my roots out of lots and lots of pots. To love, always. To always love. To really know exactly what it means to trust. To do, means an infinitive. These are the deepest, truest aspects of my existence. I’m definitely working on embodying each of those things; every single day is another chance for growth and renewal. 

As a young child, I began to have vivid dreams. And by “vivid”… I mean, the most intense, extreme, striking realities possible. My dreams crossed realms and even sometimes the physical boundary. Sometimes, they would paralyze me in fear, and other times - I saw worlds beyond anything in my comprehension. 

I didn’t tell anyone, as I was already often told that I had “quite the imagination” - I didn’t think anyone would believe me. I was usually discounted as naive and my gentle spirit was taken for granted, misinterpreted as “unrealistic”. I kept everything to myself. I learned to live in my inner world, whenever my outer one was painful. 

But those stories I mentioned? They all became irrevocably important to me, because in some strange, miraculous way - all stories feel the same. I could somehow feel myself in each one of them. In those stories, it was a heroic quality to be gentle and kind - and possessing the bravery to go against the grain wasn’t looked down on. Talking to trees and collecting rocks as magical items wasn’t “crazy”. Following your heart was the plot line. 

And that made me feel safe… normal… smart… loved. 

In this life, and in others, I have walked the path of the wounded healer. I have struggled through my dark and come into my Light. I am here to guide you on your way back home - back to your true Light essence. 

The gifts that I offer are multi-faceted, just as they were in Elestia. 

I offer wise counsel. I have a deep and abundant  heart. I know people, naturally and by nature. I read people’s stories - in their faces, in their body language, in their expressions, in their pain which they trust me with. I create specific talismans to guide people on their journeys.

People come to me, who need help in different ways. Because I have known darkness, I know how important the Light is. Because I have plummeted my own depths, I know the Truth in Love and it’s ever gentle and wise, soft whisper.  

I am here now - and I offer to you my assistance. 

If you need a guide, I am your mentor - directing your forward to your own Light and genius. 

If you need a talisman, I am your craftsman. I can weave together very diverse materials to create the energetic assistance that your magic needs. A constant reminder and source of help, worn round your neck.